Voices From Within
By Gordon Perry
Hello & Welcome folks to our new interactive feature called Voices From Within. My name is Gordon, your voice and friend from the inside. I designed this to give people impacted by thesystem simple practical, low-barrier ways to connect, learn, and reduce harm. I did add a little teaser from the PBS Frontline Solitary Nation documentaries from 2014 & 2019 showing me in the old M.S.P. segregation unit. This is for those of you who may not be familiar with this important part of M.D.O.C. history, and how far the M.D.O.C. has come. There was a time when rehabilitation related programing or support avenues at M.S.P. were unheard of. Thankfully M.P.A.C. has been a leader for prison advocacy in ME, and has helped push the M.D.O.C. into what it has transformed into today.The M.D.O.C. is now a leader throughout the entire country in unique & innovative prison reform practices. More on that later, for now let me focus on the programs we are implementing 😀.
Why this feature exists
People inside and their families have felt the negative effects of the system for far too long. Voices From Within aims to help minimize this by making a meaningful positive impact on the people participating in these different programs. These programs focus on education, harm reduction, and building practical support networks, and the work M.P.A.C. has pushed for and continues to support so this important work is able to continue. My hope is that my persistence, dedication, and hard work will successfully help individuals do this effectively.
A personal note
I grew up in a broken system that offered almost zero help from when I was just a child touring the youth center facilities to the adult prison system. Roughly a decade ago things started changing for the better in ME when restorative practices and ways of being started being explored and implemented. Since that time the M.D.O.C. did a 180° turn changing into the M.M.O.C.. A new styled system utilizing restorative programming along with medicines to treatmental health related issues like ADHD/ADD and SUD to name a few. These tools finally started reaching people like myself who desperately needed them to function like a normal human being. That change transformed my life like I never imagined possible. I recognize and appreciate all of this and now I want to pay it forward.
Thank you for checking out Voices From Within. Give these programs a chance to grow on you, use what you learn, and pass it on. Your attention, questions, support and voice help change lives.
Word of the week: Fish
A fish is a term used to describe someone newly arriving in prison. This is usually a first-timer who hasn’t yet learned the routines, language, or culture of incarceration. For those inside already part of the system these individuals stick out loudly & clearly due to their lack of knowledge combined with a fear of wanting to survive & following protocols of surviving in a typical prison environment.
Word: Fish
Pronunciation: /ˈfish/
Plain definition:
A fish is a term used to describe someone newly arriving in prison. This is usually a first-timer who hasn’t yet learned the routines, language, or culture of incarceration. For those inside already part of the system these individuals stick out loudly & clearly due to their lack of knowledge combined with a fear of wanting to survive & following protocols of surviving in a typical prison environment. These so called fish adapt to survive in these prison environments which then leads to all kinds of longterm mental health related issues created by prison systems without positive polices & humanizing practices that teach & repair individuals instead of locking them up and throwing away the keys.
How it’s used:
When someone first comes through intake or arrives on the unit, other residents might call them a fish. It identifies them as a new person on the block or someone still figuring out how things work essentially. Sometimes the word is neutral, even teasing in a friendly way; other times, it can be used to test or challenge a person’s composure. Historically, being labeled a fish could mean your fair game for manipulation or intimidation. But in prison environments guided by using humanizing practices this is more of a fun tease and positive leadership and peer mentorship, will lead to friendly guidance, not exploitation unlike years past. This of course is in an environment like the M.D.O.C. where people act more like human beings instead of like animals which is how people are treated in prisons outside ME.
Where you’ll see it:
You’ll hear fish in nearly every correctional setting, especially intake units or reception areas where first-timers are processed. It’s also one of the most recognizable pieces of prison slang in pop culture — often used in films or books to portray vulnerability or naivety when someone first enters incarceration. Inside modern correctional environments, especially those influenced by the Maine Model of Corrections (MMOC), the focus has shifted toward support, stability, and mentorship for those early days. The concepts of the M.M.O.C. are not only new & innovative but they work. They tend to treat people inside in a human way which has not been the case over my 30 yrs inside and it is a step in the right direction. Treating people inside like humans makes them want to do positive things more so than not which works on making the Restorative Justice aspect so heavily utilized in ME come into play. This leads to all kinds of positive things taking shape never before seen in these prison environments outside of the occasional fluke. The violence has decreased to a standstill and recidivism rates are also decreasing in Maine which is something that has rarely happened anywhere in the US since the start of prisons shaping the country as we know it today.
Risks & concerns:
Culture shock: Entering a prison setting for the first time can be traumatic and isolating without guidance.
Exploitation: New arrivals can be targeted if they lack understanding of how things work or who to trust.
Safety: Not knowing informal or institutional expectations can lead to unintentional conflict.
Adjustment stress: First-timers often face emotional overload, fear, and uncertainty.
Culture shock: Entering a prison setting for the first time can be traumatic and isolating without guidance.
Human note:
The word fish has always said a lot about both the person being labeled — and the system they’re entering. It speaks to vulnerability, learning, and survival. Everyone who’s ever done time remembers their first days: the confusion, the noise, the unknown. In the past, that label often meant weakness or fresh opportunity for others to take advantage. But in facilities working under the Maine Model of Corrections, the meaning is starting to shift — from prey to peer, from target to trainee. Today, many residents who’ve walked the hard road are using that experience to mentor, educate, and help new people find their footing.
Gordon’s perspective:
Back before the Maine Model of Corrections took root, the word fish carried a different kind of weight. A new guy meant easy pickings or someone to school the hard way. The old environment was built on survival and separation. Now, things look and feel different. Residents have more to lose — jobs, programs, education, living situations and trust or relationships they’ve worked hard to build over time which changes everything. Under M.M.O.C., helping a fish isn’t about control; it’s about showing peers there is a better way to do time that leads to your success & happyness. You see more people teaching, guiding, and encouraging instead of testing or fighting. The positive doors the M.M.O.C. have opened gave residents a reason to walk a different path than in days past which helps lead others in the right direction alongside there own paths. That shift doesn’t just make daily life better; it builds a foundation for success beyond these walls that lowers recidivism. By teaching what accountability, community, responsibility alongside rewarding good behavior is a recipe for success for those inside struggling to find the right path in life after making mistakes they cannot take back.
Practical takeaway:
If someone refers to a loved one as a fish, understand that it marks a period of transition and learning. These early months are where strong mentorship, stability, and constructive engagement matter most. Advocates and staff should look for ways to connect new arrivals with positive peer support, orientation programs, and meaningful activity. In a well-functioning system, the fish stage isn’t something to survive — it’s where transformation begins!
Word of the week: Cellie
A cellie is often the most constant presence in a resident’s life. Some pairs develop tight friendships built on mutual respect and shared survival; others coexist quietly and just try to stay out of each other’s way. The relationship dynamic can shape a person’s entire experience inside — for better or worse.
Word: Cellie
Pronunciation: /ˈsel-ēe
Plain definition:
Short for cellmate. The person you share your living space with in a correctional facility — usually a small, confined area where two people live, sleep, and navigate daily routines together.
How it’s used:
A cellie is often the most constant presence in a resident’s life. Some pairs develop tight friendships built on mutual respect and shared survival; others coexist quietly and just try to stay out of each other’s way. The relationship dynamic can shape a person’s entire experience inside — for better or worse.
Where you’ll see it:
Anywhere residents are double-bunked or assigned shared living quarters. The word is used casually in conversation, paperwork, and even programming to describe housing partners.
Risks & concerns:
Conflict: Different personalities, cleanliness standards, or schedules can easily create tension.
Safety: Poor cell matches can escalate into fights, bullying, or long-term resentment.
Mental health: Constant proximity with little privacy can trigger stress, anxiety, or depression.
Adjustment: Frequent cell moves or changes in cellies can disrupt stability or sleep patterns.
Human note:
Ever think about how much trust it takes to sleep a few feet away from someone you barely know? Being a cellie means living in tight quarters, learning to compromise, and often managing tension silently. It’s not just about survival — it’s about learning emotional control and respect in a space where neither comes easy. For some, a good cellie becomes like family. For others, it’s a day-by-day practice in patience.
Practical takeaway:
When a resident mentions a new cellie or conflict with one, it’s worth paying attention. Cell compatibility can deeply affect safety, stress levels, and rehabilitation outcomes. Staff and advocates should monitor housing stability, support conflict mediation, and ensure both residents’ voices are heard when issues arise. A good cellie situation can support growth — a bad one can set recovery or progress back months.
Meaning:
Short for cellmate. A cellie is the person you share your living space with — day in, day out — often for months or even years at a time.
Used in a Sentence:
“My cellie and I been down together for three years. We run like clockwork — one cooks, one cleans.”
Insight:
Having a cellie can be one of the biggest lessons in patience and adaptability. It’s not just about sharing a small room — it’s about sharing moods, habits, and space in a place where privacy barely exists. Sometimes you luck out and find someone you click with. Other times, it’s about endurance and learning to keep the peace. Either way, every cellie situation teaches something about communication, empathy, and respect. Inside or outside, those are survival skills worth carrying with you.
Real Talk: Living With a Cellie
Having a cellie is a crash course in humanity. You learn how different people handle pressure, boredom, anger, and change. You see what cooperation really means when there’s nowhere to hide and no “off switch” for the person across from you. There are moments of laughter, frustration, even silence that says more than words ever could. Over time, you figure out what matters most — respect, honesty, and a little understanding. The truth is, being a good cellie is a reflection of the kind of person you are becoming. It’s practice for life on the outside where shared space might not have bars, but it still takes patience and respect to live in harmony.
I will leave you with that my friends. I hope you enjoyed this weeks word and you had some fun with it all. I appreciate you caring enough to check this page out so thank you!
Thanks everyone for reading these little projects of mine. I don't quite know what I would call yet. I guess it's a little bit of everything in here. My hope is people can benefit from this somehow. Its a win if that's happening in my eyes. Plus a little more positive anything is what we like!
— Gordon